(Source: the-monster-that-walks)
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I fucking hate it when you’re in such a fantastically giddy mood and then you see one simple little thing that makes you think, “oh” and then you just get this empty feeling in your chest and you get nauseous and the world just crumbles and you want to just lay under a blanket and close your eyes and fall asleep and never wake up.
don’t start dating your crush if
- the attraction is purely physical (wanting to bang them =/= romantic compatibility)
- you feel pressure to change or hide parts of yourself to get them to like you
- aspects of their lifestyle make you uncomfortable (i.e. alcohol/drug use, people they hang out with, etc.)
- they invalidate or belittle your identity or your passions (i.e. “Bisexuality means you’re confused!” “Writing can’t be a real career!” etc.)
- they never stop talking about their exes
- they only talk to you to vent their emotional baggage
- they routinely ignore you without explanation
- they’re only interested in conversations about themselves
- you put effort into getting to know them, but they don’t seem to care about getting to know you
- you constantly worry about their approval or pleasing them
no matter how much you like someone, basing a relationship around worshiping or trying to fix someone or fueling an inferiority complex is unhealthy and leaves you vulnerable to toxic and emotionally draining relationships. attraction is strong and we do dumb things when we’re infatuated with someone, but please remind yourself that your own well-being should always take priority over any potential romance and run far away if anyone, especially your crush/partner, suggests otherwise.
“Everything that reminds me of you” playlist (2000’s edition)
Here with out you - 3 doors down // Thunder - Boys like girls // I never told you - Cobie Caillat // Dreaming with a broken heart - John Mayer // Since U been gone - Kelly Clarkson // You and me - Lifehouse // A drop in the ocean - Ron Pope // Addicted - Saving able // Fall for you - Secondhand serenade // She is - The Fray // All over you - The Spill canvas // Chasing cars - Snow patrol //
It’s been hard lately knowing what to say when people ask me how I’m doing.
Because technically, I’m doing good. I mean, I’ve done great at raising my kid, I’ve just graduated, I get my car AND start college in March.
You’d think that I would feel on top of the world but I don’t.
I may appear to be doing good, but emotionally, I’m just tired. I’m tired of only feeling happy when rose is around. I’m tired of not having a single real friend in my life. I’m tired of coming in second to all of my friends and family and flings. I’m tired of wanting commitment and never being able to find it. Im tired of feeling like I’m not worth much of anything. And I’m tired of being treated like shit by everyone in my life.So yeah, I could tell you all that I’m doing good since that’s how I appear. But every time I do, Just know that I’d be lying.